This was written for my own sanity

I'm sure you've been holding your breath to hear what is going on. Okay...that's probably just me. But I thought I would keep the updates up. Well at least as much as I can. So where did I leave off? I left off that we got an offer. So we counter-offered and that was late Saturday night before that got done because realtors are crazy busy people on the weekends. So we will hopefully hear what they have to say on Monday (I'm guessing another counter-offer). And hopefully we will meet somewhere happily in the middle (but more to our side than theirs. heehee). The only thing is that it would be contingent on their house selling. I wasn't all that thrilled about that, but we are going to leave it on the market while their's tries to sell (and will therefore be open to other offers until they close) but apparently their house is getting a ton of interest and that's why they started looking. So we'll just have to wait and see what unfolds. I personally feel pretty good about it because I saw a robin redbreast bird in our front yard on the day we got their offer, and I'm pretending like that's a good sign (although I realized later that it's the bluebird that is apparently the good luck bird) but you know...I'll take what I can get.

Other than that, I think I should emphasize that we are not moving because John's job is in trouble (that we know of), or because we are in trouble, or anything like that. I know people have expressed concern, and I just want to reassure you that neither of those things is the case. But thank you for the concern nonetheless. Someday I will go into detail about why we feel that this is a good idea, but I just want for things to go through before throwing my grand theories out there. I'm a conservative you know.

Lastly, I would like to state that I have been thinking a lot about my blog lately (what else is new right? I'm so obsessive about things). Anyway, I've been thinking about how it has changed over the years, and how I have changed how I view my blog over the years. Somethings I like, other things I really don't like. One of my good friends just took her blog private with only family and a very few close friends allowed in to read her now occasional posts. It is something that I have also considered. Recently I had a falling out with a good friend of mine that left me very saddened. It was not over a blog thing, but was over a misunderstanding on facebook. That caused me to cease updating my own facebook status (for a good while) and only occasionally comment on friends' facebook pages. I am finding that I am re-evaluating the good that comes from facebook, blogs, and other things in my life. I often do. I'm not sure why I've had such a hard time with knowing what I want in regards to my blog lately, and I apologize to you that I agonize about it so much. But mostly I want you to know that I am aware that this blog has changed. I am aware that my way of writing has changed (based on who I thought might be reading), and those things bother me. I would like to go back to how simple it used to be, when I thought that only a few close friends from far away were reading and mostly family. So with that, I guess what I'm saying is...that I'm blog-moody and that I am leaning very closely to going back to my original blog, taking it private, and only letting family and a very very few close friends inside (that also live far away). Mostly likely I will not let people into the blog that live close by, as I feel that it has caused problems with people that live close by, and that really makes me sad.

Okay, that is my Sunday night long-windedness for the week. My Mom is probably leaving tomorrow and that also makes me sad. Maybe that is the cause of the blog-moodiness. It has been so nice having her close. It makes me even more determined to find our place back East. My Mom really is one of my favorite people to have around. She is a calming influence on my life and makes me feel that I am a smart capable person, even when I feel like things are falling down around my ears. Love you Mom.

Goodnight.